I felt it was best to take a break from everything and everyone this past week. I was on my phone less and less. I was just going to work and coming home. On April 26th, after going to work  for 8 hours, I prepared myself to fall into the same cycle of coming home, showering, listening to some music, and eventually falling asleep. It was nicer outside, however, and my friends texted me and said we should meet up. I know, social distancing, but it was a nice day and I didn’t want to pass it up being that this weather is unpredictable at this point. 

Every time I meet up with my friends, it’s like everything bad I was feeling or all those emotions I packed up, flies out the window. When we’re together, it’s non stop laughter and singing, and overall, we just have a good time. It can be as simple as sitting in my car parked somewhere eating and we still find a way to be there for hours just talking. 

On Sunday, Adria and I drove over to Davenport to meet up with Jayliyah, and we did just that. Originally, I was going to get a few printed pictures from her since I want to begin drawing to make quarantining a little more enjoyable. We ended up sitting in my car parked in front of Jayliyah´s house, having the deepest conversation we’ve ever had. We talked about relationships, our friendships with each other after we go away to school, social media things, mental health, how we perceive the after life, how we perceive ourselves, or aspirations in life, future plans and goals, and our impeccable traits we have as individuals. It was a nice, feel good conversation I didn’t know I needed. I’ve been working on self love, healing, and growth after some past circumstances left me in a pit of nothing but sadness. That phase taught me a lot, and it continues to teach me as the days go by that expressing emotions is okay. During our conversation I learned a lot about my strong friends. The strong friends I go to for advice had problems of their own that they didn’t open up about until that night. They allowed me to give advice to them while they exchanged the favor of doing so for me. It was a different vibe. It was a judgment free zone, where we just talked and talked until the sun went down. Days like those are needed more often than not during these times of chaos. We keep each other grounded and I do feel like I’m the glue that holds us together, but they play a part in making sure I’m doing fine at the same time. They’re the shoulder to cry on and the pair of ears to listen to every problem I’m willing to open up about. The energy will always be mutual between us and it took quarantine to help us realize how much we need each other and how important it is to communicate.